Intentional Living ...... through Depression and Anxiety
It is so hard to see my friends in pain yet everyday, through my FaceBook feed, I read and reach out to those in a hard season they are trying to get through.....
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TL;DR - life update - intentional living changes - I have depression and anxiety, but attempting therapy
Lately I've been trying to live a more intentional lifestyle. Yeah, it's a trendy buzzword, but it's a goal I'm working towards. Living more simply and being more mindful sounds easy, but it's harder than I realized.
Part of this has already begun as we started sorting our "stuff" to minimize what we actually want to keep around; a lot is being put in the "sell/donate" box(es). We plan to keep a few of our favorite collectibles and certain home decorations, certainly, but sometimes it's so hard to let go of some things that do truly need to be. Gods, we have so much to downsize.
I'm also trying to be more mindful of my time, my food, and the way I live my life day-to-day. Sure, I have to get up and go to work Monday - Friday, but I mostly have complete control of before and after work and that's what I'm trying to mold into a happier, fulfilling use of that time. Bad routines are one of my many, many shortcomings/downfalls, but I realize that's where I'm at. The first step is acknowledgment, I suppose.
I'm also hoping changing up my patterns and being more mindful of my time and activities will help with my anxiety and depression, because it's been pretty rough lately, not going to lie. I finally got to see a therapist, which took almost 3 months to happen because I kept getting my appointments canceled. I have another visit set up for next week.
My friend circle has been getting smaller and smaller as I get older and older. I've seen others make this claim before and it's true for me. Politics, geography, heck - life in general, these are contributors to my shrinking circle to be sure, but I know a lot of it is also on me. I've become more withdrawn and socially anxious then I used to be. I need to make more of an effort. It's on the list.
While I completely realize these kinds of troubles and issues are no where close to the levels others are experiencing. I understand I have and do live a privileged life. However, from a personal mental health standpoint, I've definitely been strugglebussing.
But I'm not giving up, at least not yet. Hopefully not at all.
*** I really miss the old Livejournal days and Facebook is not even close to the bond I had with LJ
Much Love to you my friend,